Nowadays my life seems to have a course... a real one, like the one i was trying to find in my whole life.
In august i'm going to start my second cycle at the university, i'm going to take the 2 courses that i need to go to faculty [composition II and drawing & modeling II] and if i get good grades [as i propose] i'll take the courses that i need to my career, to finally go ahead to my f*cking dreams... but now i'm kind of afraid of my future, 'cause i don't want to fail again for my lack of determination and stupidity... but this must change for better in the next weeks [or i'll kill them and bury in my mind as the last cycle] and this Xmas must be better that 2009 holidays... 'cause i'll be in second year with new challenges, new techniques to learn and grow up as an artist and human. Also
'm Trying to get a job to pay my material's expense, to buy clothes and to go out as the last 3 months' cause it's nice to have fun with your own money ... Your money and daddy's money, you CAN do whatever you want with it and do not feel guilty [yeah, i know Some people do not feel embarrased When They take Dad's money ... ME BUT YES] and 'cause i want to buy a laptop and a wacom bamboo [kind of unrreal, kind of NECESSARY] wondeful sources for my big dreams That started the last year on my diary, sketch book That show the improvement of my first year university ... fellows and well ... year if a Makes a great improvement ... What will make 5 year? ... Morpheous just knows the answer [and this time it'spositive].
And well ... maybe part of my real life is getting Becoming Complicated But my real "dream dog" Things for Better turn, as i wish when i was little with my big ponytail and my first 48-box color pencils, Being a great artist and a person Better ... this is not a dream anymore ... this is real ... ♥ now
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